Let the sun never blind your eyes(:

I can’t get out of my head how he pulls me close, and leans his forehead on mine. Such a happy thought…

So why does it feel like something is stabbing my chest?

Wow

Is all I have to say. I don’t even feel the need to prove myself to him like I have every other guy. Usually I date a guy and we would be making out the whole time or some stupid shit like that. But with this guy, we can just lay there and talk, and all is good. And fun. I can be me with him. And he doesn’t have a problem with it.

I guess I could say I’m pretty freaking happy right now. <:>

So happy(:

He finally asked me out. And I said yes(:

I’m so happy. He’s so great.

:D

I know I put on a strong front. That I’m not emotional, or that I don’t care if guys don’t want me. But the truth of the matter is, I do want that semi romantic relationship with someone. The real reason I pretend not to care, is because i feel like I will never get that anyway.

How come I can never feel pretty? I look at myself in the mirror and all I find is something wrong with the way I look. I look at all my friends, whom are so pretty… And I can’t help but feel envious of their looks. They don’t have the big legs, or the big arms like I do. The stretch marks on their legs, or hips. I feel awkward. And out of place. I wish I knew how to change that.

I’m having one of those nights where I’m just laying here, thinking about everything, and crying. Which is something I never do.

This is normal right?

I want more followers >.<

I should really start getting on Tumblr more, but it’s majorly difficult when you dont have internet at your house :-/

Which explains why I have almost no followers. Bahaha xD

Oh no.

I feel like hurting myself again. I feel like cutting or bruising myself up again.

I dont feel right tonight. Something is off and i dont like it.